Time...........

Source

 

 

Inspired by something I had recently read but can't remember where or what - I often wonder .......

 

If I had a year to live what would I do???

 

Would I reconnect with old friends, right my wrongs, go on a misson of spiritual enligtenment????

 

or would I................

 

 

Laugh more

Worry less

Spend quality time with my husband

Spend one on one quality time with my children

Tell them all how much I love them

Encourage them to follow there dreams

Accept the unknown

Don't worry about the what ifs

Relax

Accept people as they are

Tell it like it is and be true to my feelings

Spend time creating wonderful family memories

Capture these memories in my scrapbook albums

Create more

Keep only what I truly love and cherish.

Surrond myself with positive people who love me for me, who accept me as I am and don't want to change me.

 

 

Why wait for a year to live to have the life I deserve all the time!

The above is what I need to be stirving for each and every

day that I am alive so I can be

 

TRUE TO MYSELF

LOVE MYSELF

BE ME!





Friends............



Source



Inspired by Craig Harpers Recent Post Friendship Criteria I was inspired to have a think about my "friends" and how they fit into my life.

Over the last year to 18 months I have noticed a drop in friends/accquaintances and how we have all moved on from each other and are no longer needed in our current life. Our time together has finished but not forgotten.

Though that still leaves me with lots of acquaintances from the different aspects of my life:

The Soccer Club Group - These are other parents from our childrens teams, those that play soccer with my husband and there wifes, those that we only see in soccer season. - These also include a lot of my husbands friends,including a lot of his childhood friends who we somehow don't seem to see over the summer sunny months (must have enough of each other over winter HA)

The Squash Club Group - These are new to my circle, although a couple are crossed over from the soccer club people

The Childs Friends Group - These are more the parents of there friends who I see randomly when drop offs and pick ups with the kids but would stop and talk to if I saw them up town.

The My Parents Friends Group - These are friends of my parents that I see around town - also in this category are my auntys friends.

The Work Place Group -  Self explanatory - do not socialise with them outside of work related events.

The Dancing Group - There are two sets with this group - those that I only see at Dance class and Dance Parties. Then there are those that I choose to socialise with at Dance Parties and other dance related events, we have an interest in common that draws us to each other and enjoy each others companies - always a great time when hanging out with these people!

The above groups are friends but would not be the first people I would think of if I needed a shoulder to cry on or need to have a good whinge about life with!

That would be:

Angela - I regard her as my BFF - we have been friends for nearly 20 years and share most things with each other, I enjoy her company and we share a love of scrapbooking, amongst other things. She has been there with both my parents passing but does not know the family and its dynamics as well as the next two. But there is something to the friendship that makes it just that bit more special.

Stacey and Megan - These two I have know for the longest, (probably getting closer to 25 years) in fact Megan use to date my brother many many years ago and Stacey and her ex husband where my brothers best friends way back when! - These two know me and my family and all that goes in between.  They have been there for me when both my parents passed away and for that I am truly grateful to have them in my life. - While we are not constantly in each others lives and only cath up every three months - I know that I can call them at any time and they would stop what they are doing and be by my side as soon as I needed them to be!

At times I feel sad that I do not have more closer friends but the three true friends I do have I cherish dearly and they help make my life rich along with the others sprinkled through.

My Dreams and Hopes...............

Never, and I mean never, allow anyone else’s ideas of who you can or can’t become sully your dream or pollute your imagination. This is your territory, and a KEEP OUT sign is a great thing to erect at all entrances to your imagination.

I found the above wonderful words at a new blog I have recently discovered:

Heal your Life and Dr Wayne Dyer

This particular post of his really hit home for me and believing in my dreams and not letting others decide for me what they believe to be the best for me.

I know whats best for me!

I know what I am capable of becoming!

Now to sort start believing again that I can become/do whatever I know I am capable of!

Go check the blog out as there are other great writers blogs to be discovered!

Febuary Photo a Day...............

Photo  Day as Inspired at Fat Mum Slim

The lovely Amanda at Fragments of A Drama Queen  alerted me to this fun "challenge" at Fat Mum Slim which I think I will pertake in.

I am starting a bit late but will catch up and the first three will be from todays happenings.

Come join us

My Special K Personal Plans

I thought I would look into the Special K plans that they are advertising and I had seen on a few blogs  I read, so I headed over to their site at http://www.myspecialk.com.au/ to check it out.

I set up my account as was required before I could go any further in the site.

You are then asked to enter in your current weight and your height.

Done..................

Then the screen goes "cloudy"  and the following popped up:

We calculated your BMI to be either below 18.5 or 40 and over. Unfortunately we don’t have a plan that meets your needs. Why not speak to your Doctor or an Accredited Practicing Dietitian (APD) for an eating and exercise plan that is specific for you.

 ARGH!!! - I am either Too Skinny or Too FAT! for this site!

I am guessing its not the first part!

OMG my BMI is in the morbidly obese section!

Now don't get me wrong I know I am overweight but I guess the reality of seeing the Morbidly Obese next to my BMI was like a kick in the big fat guts!

I checked what I need to get down to in the Healthy Weight Range and I need to lose just over 50kgs more from what I weighed at my last weigh in! - Eek that is tiny!

It surely has reinforced my desire to lose this weight once and for all! Cause I want it bad enough!

Source

Update.............

Well life has been plodding along nicely with the following happening in my life:

Joined up a Womans in Squash Course - Loving it

Thinking of joining for three months

Went to a talk from a Naturopath and got some good weight loss pointers

Have created the 2011 Christmas Card - now to mass produce

Hubby is off to Fiji for 4 days this weekend

Christmas Shopping with My BFF on Friday

Summer Fun Buckets are nearly finished

Have got back into walking to work at least twice each week

Feeling a bit more in control on this weight loss path.

Loving that summer is on its way!

Lost............

Where do I begin...............

The last couple of weeks/months I have been going through the motions of life as it was all to overwhelming for me - why - I am not entirely sure, but think it is a mix of many different things:

Work

Money

Friendships

Winter

Tiredness 

Many different things in my life got neglected including my weight loss journey and eveything I had established to go with it - excercise, healthy eating, sleep!

But - I am hoping to change all of that now or at least over the next week or so.

I have begun walking/training to work again which will help with weight loss and money parts of my life (petrol costs for the car was increasing the Credit Card debt! - petrol at the moment is approx 2.09cents per litre and with the tank being 50 litres for a full I am only getting approx 550 kms out of a tank - which is about a week and half work travelling!)

With the regular excercising, I am sleeping better which is making me feel more motivated to do things around the house as well as concentrate on my scrapbooking and other crafts that I do.

It is also helping me with making healthier food choices which in turn makes me a happier person.

I know it will be a slow process to get back to where I was before things slid down the slippery slope but I will get there.

Things I Love.......

Getting back into walking and catching the train

Sun shiny days after the rain

Summer is coming

Completing scrapbook pages

Creating wedding gifts

Spending time with friends

Family days at Snow Planet

The All Blacks making it to the RWC Final

A loving forgiving husband

Wonderful happy children

Awesome Blogs to read

Inspiration from those blogs

Slowly sorting out my muddled brain



Inspiration

Source:Boost Your self Esteem

Things I love............

Daylight Savings starting in NZ

All Blacks doing well in the Rugby World Cup

Warriors making it to the Finals

Getting invited to my friends wedding

Feeling creative to make them there wedding gift

Great talks with my BFF

Weekend fun with the kids

Purchasing more Christmas Presents

Nephews loving there birthday presents

Hugs and kisses from Nephews

Inspiring blogs to read and learn from

Husband being recognised for his volunteer work



Things I love..............

Things I am loving at the moment are....

The beginnings of Spring in the plants

Baby Lambs bouncing in the fields

Hearing all about my friends up coming wedding

Galas Radical Self Love Manifesto

Making list

Deciding to begin scrapbooking again - I have missed it!

Planning Christmas Lists

Creating the wedding gift for my two wonderful friends

Purchasing Christmas Presents in September

Reading Chick Lit!

Cute conversations with my 9 year old son

Life conversations with my 14 year old daughter

Love from my man!

What about you????

The Receiving Project.......

Have you heard about The Receiving Project????

Are you a “giver”, giving of yourself and time, but have a hard time when other’s want to appreciate you? Is it a challenge to receive from The Universe?

Are you receiving the experiences that you want in your life? When you are ready to make a real change in your life, join The Receiving Project!

Go check out all about it thru the link above - you will not regret it!

It has opened me up to so many wonderful gifts from the universe.

I hope it does the same for you

Currently Loving............

Inspired by The Dame's post here are some random things I am currently loving in no particular order..............

Ceroc dancing

The gang at my dance class - they are awesome!

Starting to feel inspired to get back on the weight loss wagon properly!

The awesome new clothes that I got from my wonderful friend.

My wonderful friend.

The confidence I feel wearing my new clothes

Inspiring ideas from the World Wide Web.

Spring starting in NZ

Longer day light hours

Summer BBQs are nearly here

Being able to ride my bike again in the evenings

Subway roast chicken on honey oat

Starting to play squash again at the end of October

My hubby

My Children

LIFE........................

Well I haven't disappeared completely!

But I have been having struggles lately and needed some time to reasses what I am doing with my life.

Making good choices at the moment is hard and it annoys me so much!

I need to reassess what I am trying to achieve and also make the journey doable!

Bear with me as I sort out my head!

89 Day Challenge - Day 25

I am just back from the gyma nd a great work out - I really pushed myself this morning and I can feel it!

It is another cold morning in Auckland so I am rugging up warm.

Food choices today:
Egg and banana for Breakfast
Tuna salad for lunch
Fruit for snacks

I am still working thru my issues and trying to get them out and down on paper so I can see them and acknowledge them and then work on eleminating them from my life

Have a great day

89 Day Challenge Day 24

Today is my rest day - which is great as Tuesday nights are my late night.  Also with  the freezing cold weather we are experiencing in Auckland at the moment, I am glad to be able to stay in the warmth a little bit longer.

Yesterday was another food shocker - why do I do it!

This is something I need to really look within to see why I can't find the success again of previous attempts.

I do want to loose weight

I do want to be under 100 kg (Lowest 102kg a year ago)

I love the control of eating well and getting the results on the scales

BUT

Why do I continue to eat junk food!

Why am I not giving it my all at the gym making sure that I am feeling like a work out has just happened

Why do I think I am not worth it!

Lately with our dance trainings, different  people have been recording the routine and then we all get to view it to check out timings and make sure that we are all hitting the beats at the same time.

I hate looking at it because what I see in my mind of my body is nothing like what I view on the recording of me and it depresses me!

I guess I view myself on what I can see when I look down and that is a "frontal view",  but that is definitely not what I see when I see a recorded version of myself and this then makes me  think is that how people see me????

Am I really that big, that round?!

I have so much sorting out in my mind to do and somethimes that feels so overwhelming that I just give yup and have the chocolate!

But I will continue to look within to sort the outside and come to a happy resting place

89 Day Challenge - Days 20-23

Whew - I have been so busy these last couple of days I forgot to post!

The weekend (Days 20/21) were busy with children and soccer commitments - so no gym but lots of walking,

Yesterday (day 22) saw me up nice and early - 5.30am - and off to the gym for a great work out!
Food choices yesterday - so so

Today (Day 23) was another early start but a gentle work out - so friggin cold!
Food Choices today - will be much better!

I can't keep busting my ass going to the gym in the mornings if I am going to waste the workout with bad food choices!

I know - I know - the penny drops!

89 Day Challenge Day 17

 A nice sleep in for me this morning!

I didn't make it to bed until 11pm last night due to my dance class running late and then we had our team training after the classes!

We also had a "substitute" teacher last night who is amazing to watch and he brought along his regular dance parter who I absolutely love watching dance, so last night was a great night for me!

My feet are tender this morning so I have on some comfortable shoes on today.

Another new set of clothes today - but with touches of green today!

Loving all these new clothes - I am hoping to go and get some more coathangers tonight along with a visit to the local library for a book I have been waiting to arrive:

Lost and Found:Unexpected revelations about food and money - by Geneen Roth.

Anyone read this???

Food choices - haven't been the best and it is something I need to work on!
Emotions - I am feeling a little overwhelmed lately and after chit-chatting with someone last night I am wondering about trying to take some St Johns Wart to help me feel a bit better.

Has anyone tried this before - good??? Bad???

89 Day Challenge - Days 11-15

Opps

Sorry about that - the days got away on me after the suckky day at work!

I have still been going to the gym during the week days and trying to fit in extra activities in the weekend.

Food choices have been good and the scales on Saturday morning are moving the right way so that is good.

I had the most amazing day yesterday.

A very good friend of mine has had weight loss surgery (not lap banding but a sleeve?) she has lost 13 kilos since the surgery and lost before as well.

She has had to do a complete wardrobe change and I was the most lucky recipient of her wardrobe!

I can not believe it still - she gave me:
7 pairs of jeans (all different styles)
8 black pants
Approx 12-15 camisoles
Over 50 tops and overtops!
2 pairs of boots
Togs
2 cardiagans
2 jackets

I am so grateful for her generosity and for thinking of me like this.

I now have the problem of which top to choose to wear each day!

And to say thank you I am going to get her a voucher for some pampering at a Beautician as well as assorted gift cards from the "normal" girls clothing shops.

I feel so powerful and confident today in my new clothes it is an amazing feeling!

Whats the Weigh Day........................

Image my own

Starting Weight: 115.6 – 21.05.11

Last Weeks Weight:113.7
Weigh In this Week:112.5
Loss this week:-1.2
Total loss so Far:3.1kg

Thoughts on the week that’s been:
I have restarted the Wendie Plan this week and am using the following formula:

Saturday: + 1
Sunday: - 2
Monday: - 4
Tuesday: + 10
Wednesday: Normal 21 points
Thursday: - 1
Friday: - 4

Food wise: - Great choices with lots of variety – I am trying not to have too much processed food for my snacks, so lots of fruit has been consumed, but I have been getting Chuppa Chup lollipops for a sweet snack in the evenings and at 1 point each it is a good choice for me at this stage.
Lunches have been salad or chicken soup or sushi.

Exercise Wise: - I was only able to walk to work one day this week, so I would like to increase that next week, - the goal is to get up to three days walking. I also had my dance class on Tuesday and starting next week I will have two additional dance classes each week.

Mind Wise: - My thinking this week has been great and I have not been wanting to overeat at all, I think this has been helped by keeping myself busy in the evenings with my decluttering project. I even got out all the plastic bags on Thursday night from the cupboard that were just stuffed in it and folded them all nicely into triangles and placed them into a container so that they are all sorted.

I am especially proud of myself for not indulging in the work birthday morning tea on Wednesday.


The week ahead: We have a soccer tournament on Sunday so I will plan ahead for that to make sure I have a good lunch and snacks, otherwise just a normal week for me.