The Voices in My Head...................

I have been reading a few different blogs lately, that are all about loving yourself now and how to embrace life as you are now, not where you hope to be.................

They are all great and talk alot about positive thoughts and sayings and changing the negative voices in your head!

But the more I read and the more I  thought about what they were saying the more I realised that I don't talk badly to myself, I don't sit there telling myself what a miserable, fat blob you are for eating those biscuits, or I don't deserve to be happy because I am overweight or anything remotely similar.

When I eat something bad, there is actually no voices in my head saying nasty things - just "Oh well - what else!" - I am truly beginning to discover I am an emotional eater - mainly boredom.

What I do, do thought is play over conversations in my head and how they should have gone or what I want to say to someone if I had the courage.

I also replay events/moments when I have said something stupid and think why did I say that (and it can be from years ago) and replay it with what I should have said.

I worry about what that person is now thinking of me and is it affecting how they deal with me now.

A recent example is a situation at work with a co-worker who I challenged (nicely) in a conversation and she has stopped talking to me.
I have played the conversation over and over again - then thought about what would happen if I confronted her about the non-talking which leads me to recall things I have told her in the past that she may bring up which will alter the whole conversation and bring it back to me being the one in the wrong - and so I won't say anything at all!

Whew  - that makes me tired just typing it!

So - I guess what I need to do is try and let some things go...........................

What about you? or am I the only one going crazy???

Reflections and Goals

2010 Reflections:


As the Year nears its end, it is time to reflect on my achievements for 2010:

I have managed to finish 2010 lighter than I started it.
I have begun training for two duathalons.
I now own a bike and use it regularly.
I have begun attending Aqua Aerobics classes


I have weaned myself off watching TV in my spare time and have only got 2 shows that I set the time aside to watch per week.

My Dancing has improved in both styling and spinning!

I have continued to grow my friendships and wean those that were not productive for me.

I have helped raise two beautiful children, with one of them becoming a teenager this year.

I am slowly getting better with my management of money


2011 Goals:

To loose at least 20 kgs this year:
(I hope to try and maintain a 3kg loss per month which will more than blitz this goal)
I will continue with my training for the two duathalons (February and April)
I will include bike riding into my exercise routine
For the remainder of the summer months I will continue to attend Aqua Aerobic classes.

I will keep on top of my scrapbooking by completing at least one page per week

I will work through the items on my 43 things to do before I turn 43 list.

I will improve my money management and reduce my debt considerably!

I will continue to improve my life balance and remove “clutter” from my life in all aspects.

I will continue to help grow two unique individuals with my loving husband and teach them values that will serve them well in the years to come.